A Very Happy New Year 2010 to all. I know it’s late, but it’s better to be late than to be never.
Well after a long gap I am back to my blog. Actually blog is for expressing feelings but i think its also the best place for expressing frustration. In fact blog is the place where we can pour down all our frustration without thinking of its side effect.
New year brings all sort of happiness with it for everyone. But for me it’s the last year 2009 impact that’s going to haunt me at least for a year or so. So 2010 brought nothing for me except the misery in life. What a fucking start of the year, I never dreamed like this. Total nightmare.
On Dec 28, I got my ratings for period Nov-09 to Oct-10. I literally fucked all my year just for the sake of rating and appreciation. Worked on Diwali and Dussera. Just got to celebrate Ramzan and Gandhi Jayanti as Indian Holiday. Who the fuck wants to celebrate Gandhi Jayanti with family. Since I am not a muslim, Ramzan holiday was also of no use. Forget about compoff. Even on Independence Day and Republic day I was in Office. This is the Independence we celebrate!!!!!
At the end of year I ended up with lapse of 5 paid leave and carry forward of 10 Paid leave for next year. Just imagine the number of leave I enjoyed for the last year. Out of 365 days I was with my parents for just 15 days. The morale of the story is that I fucked myself for this bloody shit project and screwed everything right from my personal to extreme personal life. And at the end what I got is
2- Met Expectation with Assistance
i.e. 2/5 what a FUCK!!!!!!!
70% people got 3. i.e. Met Expectation.
The biggest defeat of my life. Not with the competition but with bloody fucking politics. I would have not mind this defeat if it would have been solely on the grounds of competition. I got the reward not for working hard but for raising against anything unfair. It’s a reward for going against those who tried to establish their monopoly. Its reward for clearly disapproving the unfair.
At the feedback meeting my manager said “Shashi I am happy the way you have performed in the last year. You improved well as compared to the previous year. Not only in regular work, but you have shown your presence in other fields as well. I would like you to carry on in this way only. Try to concentrate to enhance your technical skills. You met our expectation. We just need to balance the Bell Curve and there need to be someone in low rating. ”
Dear sir at least you should have given some more meaningful explanation for this.
“Desire” and “Deserve” are two different things. What you desire may not be what you deserve. Maybe I was desiring more, but one thing for sure that what I got is really less than what I deserve.
Well I paid for going against. Any how they can just held up my increment. They will not hike my pay. They will not promote me to SE from ASE. Well one thing they have forgotten. They cannot held up my career. They can only produce hindrance in my path. They can slow down me a bit, but they can’t stop me.I haven't given any right to anyone to control my life. Neither my parents, nor to god and not to these hypocrites.
I will bounce back with flying colors. It’s a challenge for these guys Stop me if you really can.
Well in the end I will say Aal Is Well….. Aal Is Well…….. Aal Is Well
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